ugh... not again.

Little dude is 7 months old. And about 2-3 months ago I started to get *that* feeling again. *THAT* feeling being one of anxiety and panic. If you recall, I was diagnosed with Post-Partum Anxiety (PPA) after the dude was born. It sucked and it was so bad that I couldn't bear doing it all over again, but I couldn't bear leaving dude without a sibling even more, so I did it again. This time around though, I thought for sure I would have escaped this dreaded disorder. But lo and behold... it's back! It sucks. I hate it. I am SO SICK of feeling sick, nauseated, anxious, and panicky. It's all I can do to just get through the day... work or otherwise. EVERYTHING overwhelms me. The thought of doing ANYTHING out of routine or off schedule panics me even more. Obviously I manage it by keeping things to a minimum... no extra-curriculare activities, sticking to a routine, etc. BUT... I still feel it. Some days are definately better than others.
WHY I CAN'T JUST BE ONE OF THOSE HAPPY GO-LUCKY MOMS???

So... if you are one of those people that I used to talk to a lot, or hang out with a lot ... sorry... but I have resorted to my cave for awhile... I promise to be my old self again one day.... soon I hope.

a day late... Happy Mother's Day!

Here's hoping all you mothers out there had a great day... the way YOU wanted it to be. For me? A day off was the way to celebrate! And since my husband is going to be gone for a week at a time, I will be getting plenty o' alone time with the kiddos... so I just hung out... ALONE. And I was fine with it! I still got stuff done, so it's not like I was lounging around. But it was just the way I wanted it. Oh yeah, I guess a new iPad would have been fun to find waiting for me on the counter... but a sweet card from the boys was just perfect!

How did you celebrate YOUR Mother's day?