Tuesday, January 19, 2010

ok... now for the update

I've been away for awhile... sorry. I know my 3 readers are wondering what I've been up to. Believe it or not, blogging was just one more thing that overwhelmed me and made me anxious. So that's the reason I haven't blogged. It was just one more thing I felt like I had to do but didn't have time for... blahblahblah.
Anyway... let's see. As you already know, I have PPA and am still dealing with it. It started to get better and then we decided to try for another kid and now it's all coming back. The anxiety. This time I will be better prepared, but it is still very anxiety producing for me.

Thanksgiving came and went. Christmas came and went. Greyson had a good Christmas. He is sill too young to really get it. I worked myself up thinking he would be all into opening presents and such but he couldn't care less. Oh well. My fault for getting my hopes up. New Year's came and went. I went to bed at like 9:00 p.m. My favorite way to spend New Year's Eve!

My next "focus on this" project it the dude's birthday party. I need these little milestones to look forward to and to focus on, otherwise I feel like I am spinning out of control. So, his 1st birthday party is coming up. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???!!!! It's almost been a whole year!! Yes, I have the "I survived PPA" badge posted over there to the right... but I am not over it yet. I still have it... I just figured that posting that badge is thinking positive and hopefully that would help. But to think that it's been a year already... wow.. time DOES fly!

What else? I've been working and being a mommy. That's all I can really account for. I seriously can't think of anything else that I have done. I haven't worked on any projects, because the thought of it overwhelms me (it's the PPA thing). So basically I wake up, go to work, pick the dude up from daycare, play, take care of dude, make dinner and then go to bed. That is my life. Which is fine, but I just wish I didn't feel like puking all of the time.

So... without further ado... here are some pics....







ohhhh jeez... puhleeeze...


I know, I know, it's been WAY TOO LONG since I posted last and I am sorry about that. Nothing like a BLOG AWARD to get you to finally update your blog! So, thanks to Jodi Popp Thornton over at The Thorntons, I am a "When Life Hands You Lemons" recipient.

The rules for this award are simple:
Thank the giver of the award and link their blog.
List 5 things about yourself.
Link 5 new recipients and notify them. So......here we go! 5 things about me........

1. I served in the US Navy and now that I'm out a little part of me actually misses it. If I were still in I'd be in Haiti right now helping... and that would have been a good thing.

2. I have a master's degree in Marriage, Family and Child counseling... I work as an inventory manager at a restaurant chain. Go figure.

3. I know Jodi because we were roomates at MSU and we finally reconnected after about 20 years. Oh, and I am a HUGE U of M fan. Go figure.

4. I never in a million years would ever think that I would suffer from a post-partum issue. I love kids, I've always loved kids, I've been a nanny, I've worked on a post-partum ward, I know how to take care of kids.... yet... I suffer from post-partum anxiety (WTF?) and it's awful.

5. Despite #4, we are officially trying for a second child. God help me, please.

The 5 new recipients are:

Oh Baby the Places You'll Go
Wine and Cheese Please
A yet to be re-named "The Dally Files"
Postpartum Progress
Fuck You Penguin

I'd give one back to Jodi at The Thorntons... but I want to spread the love...