Saturday, February 21, 2009

I have an attachment disorder

OK... so since Gman has been home from the hospital, he has been with me 99.99% of the time, including at night when he is sleeping in his cradle near me. That .01 % that he wasn't with me was when I ran to Target to pick up a last minute V-day card for my dad and husband to be given from Gman... I about cried the whole time I was gone and was for sure having an anxiety attack the whole time I was away. I survived it... I think I was gone maybe 23 minutes.

So... back to the point that he has been with me day in and day out... well... for the first time ever I have put him in his crib for a nap... in his giant, lonely crib... IN.THE.OTHER.ROOM... and I am sitting in my room... which is NOT in his room... ALL.BY.MYSELF... without the Gman... and I am freaked out by it... only because I feel like he might not feel secure in that giant bed... all by himself... he did just come out of a place that is about 1 square foot in size and I put him out in that huge open space to fend for himself... OMG!!! I'm horrible!

Tony is of course laughing at me about the whole thing... he doesn't GET IT!!!

When did you parents put your kids into their cribs to sleep for the first time?? Is this too soon?

p.s. I am, of course, totally glued to the baby monitor (which has video)... it's just NOT THE SAME!

5 comments:

Rachel said...

Good thing you have the ability to work from home! ha, ha, ha...you're funny.

tdate19 said...

Hey Christine! Sounds like you're enjoying motherhood! I cried too the first time I left Ethan...He was about a week old and I ran to pick up pictures. Gone 20 minutes, cried the whole time!

As for the crib, if he seems content GREAT! Ethan screamed bloody murder for the first three months when we tried to put him in the crib! He slept in a tiny bassinet by our side for a LONG time!

Look forward to seeing more pixs!!!

xoxo tracey

Wendy Martin said...

I know it's tough- but you're actually teaching him good things by putting him in his crib for short periods of time- he'll be a secure little guy and will know that even if he is alone in bed for a little while that Mommy will always come back to get him.
I think I started putting Ally in her crib for naps around 2-3 weeks. I was glued to the monitor too- still am for that matter and she's almost a year old! (but in my defense her room is upstairs and ours is downstairs so I can't hear her without it.)
You're doing a great job- don't feel guilty for spending a few moments on your own. The Gman knows that you love him completely.
XO
Wendy

Madam Director said...

I must be wired differently. The first time I left Dally, I was like, "WOOHOO!!! Freedom!!!"

FYI, the sooner you detach, the easier it will be to let go when G goes off to Princeton.

I don't think I ever put Dally in his actual crib until he was 3 months old. But in his defense, I think he was wondering what took us so long.

Remember dude, it's what YOU feel comfortable with.

P.S. I still spend many many moments mesmerized watching the video monitor.

Anonymous said...

Hey....so glad things are going well for you and that GMan is happy, well and here.

As for leaving the baby in the crib. The first night I slept back in my own room with my husband and not in the baby's room, I cried for a good bit. I had to do it though. So, don't be too hard on yourself.

:)